This post comes from something that has weighed on my heart for a while. And by "while" I mean for the last few years. It's something that my heart seems to constantly battle... until just recently.
I've always been the type of person that needs to be out and doing. I can never seem to sit still for very long. And when it comes to getting something done I have little patience for slacking... just ask Randy... he knows exactly what I'm talking about! I'm not typically the one who likes to sit back and watch others do it... I want to be right there in the action... getting me hands dirty!
In college I absolutely LOVED helping with Habitat for Humanity (thanks to my older sis, Tiffany, for exposing me to this ministry) and looked forward to Spring Break each year when we would coordinate a team to spend our days building houses. I helped with our youth ministry at church and enjoyed spending time with the youth and watching them grow into God fearing adults.
.... stick with me... I'm getting to my point.
So when I married Randy and his career in music kicked off I was astatic! I loved that he was going after his dream and doing what God had called him to. I have always - and will always - support him 110%. But what began to weigh on my heart was the fact that HE was out there going and doing... and I wasn't. Randy has always made me feel like I'm as much apart of this ministry as he is... but it feels different when you're not the one on the "battle field".
What I have come to realize... and here is where it gets good... is that, sure, I may not be physically out there "doing", but my mission field is here at home, with our kids, and with my husband. It's not easy living our lifestyle in the music industry. There are hard days when the kiddos (and myself) want daddy to come home. We long for him to share his evening with us... and not the hundreds or thousands of fans that have waited all day... maybe all year... to see RED perform.
But that's just it... these fans have waited... and they may walk away from that one night completely changed. And THAT'S what it's all about. Randy's mission field may be out on the road where he has the opportunity to change someone's life... but mine is here, at home, at least for now. And I LOVE that!
I love that God has blessed us with our amazing kids and family and friends. I love that He has chosen to keep me right here, where He knows I'm needed most. And that this is only a chapter in our crazy lives. Maybe years from now God will have us somewhere else... but right now my heart is not heavy anymore... it is happy.
My mission field is home.
